Tomorrow would have been your 28th birthday, here on earth. I remember giving you a devil's food cupcake and some cologne for your 12th birthday. That stuff smelled like bug spray, or maybe rocket fuel. High octane! This will be the first birthday in 8 or 9 years that you can eat as much cake as you want and and not have to worry about your blood sugar. Kee and I miss you so much!! We'll have some diet pepsi tomorrow.. they've changed the can design since you left. It's silver now.
Just have a great 28th, Doogie. We love you.
Hi Matt.
I realize this is your first birthday in Heaven,so I wanted to find a poem. I miss you. We are going to Jack-in-the-Box and ordering the Jumbo Jack and a diet Pepsi! i love you so much! Happy Birthday
We do not need a special day
To bring you to our minds.
The days we do not think of you
Are very hard to find.
Each morning when we awake,
We know that you are gone.
And no one knows the heartache
As we try to carry on.
Our hearts still ache with sadness
And secret tears still flow.
What it meant to lose you
No one will ever know.
Our thoughts are always with you,
Your place no one can fill.
In life we loved you dearly;
In death we love you still,
There will always be a heartache,
And often a silent tear.
But always a precious memory
Of the days when you were here.
If tears could make a staircase,
And heartaches make a lane,
We'd walk the path to heaven
And bring you home again.
We hold you close within our hearts;
And there you will remain,
To walk with us throughout our lives
Until we meet again.
Our family chain is broken now,
And nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.
~ Author unknown~
I still think about Matt every single day. I know that everyone says that losing someone that you love gets easier with time but it still feels like it happened yesterday. One of the memories that I have of Matt and I is of when we were at the lake one night. We were talking about our lives and about how different things were for us since we had met a few years before. At the time I was in a bad relationship and I hadn't reached the point to where I was ready to end it. Matt told me that I deserved to be treated so much better and that one day I would find the person that I was meant to be with and marry. We sat there and didn't say anything for a while. I remember it being really peaceful. Out of nowhere Matt told me that he was interested in dating me. Of course I couldn't date him at that time because I was in a relationship but I wish that I had been able to. That night I told him that in the future if I ended up single and was ready to date that I would date him. He was so content with that. Every other guy would have pressured me and pressured me but he didn't...not even once. I respected him so much for that.
I've always been the type of woman to fall for trouble makers. Matt was far from that. He was so sweet, honest, and genuine. I regret not dating him but at the same time I am so thankful for the friendship that we had. It is amazing for me to think back and remember all of the times that Matt and I had. I miss having someone that I can talk to about anything and everything. I miss getting together with him just to go have lunch and talk. I miss going to the movies with him and seeing a really funny movie and playfully hitting him whenever I couldn't quit laughing.
One more memory and then I will end this. On Labor Day(the last day that I saw Matt), we went to Hardee's for breakfast. We had been up all night and he had helped me move a few things. We went inside the place to eat and were standing at the counter waiting to order. I looked up at the monitor which shows the security camera and I saw myself and I told Matt that I looked absolutely terrible. I will never forget him looking straight at me and shaking his head and telling me that I looked beautiful. He always made it a point to make everyone feel special and that day he definitely did just that.
I miss you Matt. I always will. You will always be in my heart and in my memories!!!
I remember changing your diapers, you learning to walk, and playing games wilth you. I remember like it was yesterday you being the ring bearer in my wedding when you were 5 years old. You were such a blessing to the world. There will never be another Matthew, because nobody loved as big as you nor did they give as much of themselves as you did. You will always be my heart and I know that you are there to tell Tyler how much I love and miss him too! I think of you every day and always will until we meet again and I'm going to give you the biggest hug ever! When the sun shines I remember your smile, when the birds sing I remember your laughter, when it rains I remember your heartaches, and when I hear a childs voice I think of your children. You left us way too soon but you will never be forgotten. I love you to the moon and back again my sweet nephew. Until we meet again Aunt Donna
Well it has been a few weeks now. But this has been a very hard day for me. On this day in 1993 we lost your granddad, and on this day 2004 we lost your grandmother too. Paw-paw and Granny Douglas loved you very much. I hope you can say hello to them along with grand paw Gowen and Tom. I really love this website and what it does...it lets everyone give their own thoughts, a special memory. Thank you eveyone who has looked. I'm still at lost not being abull to talk to you. i know I'm cheating time by calling your phone to get 10 seconds of your voice. I can't help it. A piece of me died that night at mile marker 218 on I-40, and I will never get it back. I will always think of you everyday untill we can see one another again. I LOVE YOU, HOT SHOT... DAD.
